Wednesday, June 24, 2009

A Dictionary of my Emotions

Saturday, July 4th I leave for Rwanda. Each night I'm finding it harder and harder to fall asleep as I anticipate this new chapter in my life! There are so many adjectives that could describe how I'm feeling:

Excited: I get to move to Rwanda and share Christ's love with precious children!
Nervous: I'm moving to a country where I don't know the language and only know one person!
Wistful: I think about leaving little things I love: my books, my favorite coffee, my dog
Happy: What I've hoped and prayed for has become a reality!
Sad: I leave behind wonderful friends and family that I won't be able to see (or as easily).
Thankful: Countless supporters and prayer partners have generously given to my ministry.
Contemplative: What will life be like in Rwanda, what struggles and challenges will I face?
Joyful: God has provided so many blessings in my last month and a half...I'm blown away!
Honored: It is such an honor to be joining God's kingdom work in Rwanda.
Avoidant: There are some goodbyes that I just don't want to say: family, my favorite kiddos
Anxious: How in the world will I pack all that I need for three years in three bags?
Anticipating: I can't wait to finally see the country and the people I've talked so much about!

I'm sure as soon as I get to Rwanda, this list of adjectives will stretch even longer!